Lift the weight inside of me // I see the light.

We’re standing at the gates of another week. Question is, do we go through the same gates we always do, follow the same basic routine of every week, or do we go through another gate, and explore something new and different?


So now I am typing this post, from a new place. That’s right. I moved. Not just anywhere but to the posh side of town. To the place I always dreamed to be. A lot of things have fallen into place. It’s not been easy, but I learned a lot. So many more things I learned about myself, the four worlds and alchemy in the process.

In alchemical terms this past year has been to put sulphur into a frying pan, pooring on gasoline and cooking that shit for 11 months. What remains, except for an incredible amount of fumes is some mercury. People do this all the time, but always in their sleep. And occultists do it, only few do it well, and even fewer are able to have moments of pure awakenness.

That’s why its time to introduce a few new concepts.

  • Dayside self this is your ego, your automaton, the body in the flesh during the day, influenced by the seven planets and the sun as planet, having a weekly cycle, carries the influences of the dualistic seven planets of seven vices and seven virtues, unbalanced but a reflection of the genius nevertheless, its your shell or mask, and if you don’t control whats truly controlling it, that mask and the world will control you, and you wake up one day old and miserable, wondering what the hell happened.
  • Nightside self is your animal ego, ruled by passion, your lower flesh during the night, influenced by the moon, having a monthly influence, where you truly are connected to the astral, and by way of challenging your rigid patterns force you to dare to explore other ways in pursuit of fetishes and primal desires, the danger of falling into illusion and obsession, but the posssibility to harness the beast towards your higher fire.
  • Lucifer welcome home, to your true self, to that infinite flame of light from the plaeroma, from the fullness, from pure love and pure being, undefiled and perfect, in this incarnation it is the flame that burns away at the sulphur, the one that is behind the mask.

There are these three, and the seven times seven influences and the twelve conditions, and the four worlds in which to do it. // hack.your.soul.

And to celebrate the new week, what better way to do it with this song, whom I adore:

Autumnal Equinox marks the end of a turbulent year

The new moon in conjunction with the autumnal equinox marks the end of a particularly turbulent year.

This year has brought many victories into my life finally, as the whole year have been a gigantic ritual to cause real changes in my life.

Ever since I embraced Lucifer as the archetype I would work with, I have been guiding myself towards greater self-realization, and together with other initiatory systems (each with their own egregore) I have made some progress, different influences sourced at my divine Will working together and coming together into manifestation into the physical universe.

A rite of passage caused penetration into the mysteries of the non-material to a greater level.

Joining a particular other system caused the material to be more effective.

Doing ritual, although due to the chaotic forces invoked, not always able to do so (no available ritual space when I was homeless for 1,5 months) caused a lot of karma.

Losing my home to the element of water (since I hated my Landlord, and my clutter, I brought onto myself to manifest a water leak which resulted in me having to move, and also ridding myself of a lot of clutter..) was not such a huge deal after all, I went to a magickal retreat, spent two weeks in Sweden, and stayed for one month living with friends, which taught me more about what is really important to have (and not to have).

I’ve taken this summer to re-evaluate everything in my life, and made changes accordingly. I have confronted some past “ghosts” (that is, my patterns and hang-ups, unavoidable unless you are a perfect demigod, which is unlikely) – anyway the hangups we are born with and develop by bad habits are what we try to correct as magickians and especially one that aligns himself with the archetype of Lucifer.

Which brings up the issue of gender. Can a girl aspire to the archetype of Lucifer? Is Lucifer just male, just female or androgynous? These are open question to be considered by the reader for him/herself.

I now have less recreational sex, and I have a relationship, albeit still an open one, I am now seeing someone I think I am romantically interested in. Yes, these words sounds strange. Coming from a 38 year old Luciferian that looks like 25, and lives his life up to now as being forever 19. Yet I found a very special someone who is completely male in energy but with an androgynous body, manifesting, in my opinion, the perfect balance of gender to my taste. And with the intelligence to work at my level in human, social and political matters, which is more human, contrast to my abilities that are more enginering and machine and military.

I now live in my dream house in the very poshest area of Oslo. With. A. Garden. .. and view of the mountains, and the ocean, I now posess a balanced influence of all 5 elements (air, wind, earth, water, and me).

Purposefully parked outside my house is my humble german VW car, the original design by Hitler back in the days, and my also very humble chinese scooter, not designed by Mao but copied from the Japanese Honda motor, and by me reengineered to contain an 80cc engine, just so I can outrun the number 45 bus even going uphill. Screw the number 45 bus. (And may their rude drivers who never learned the rule of the road or common courtesy burn in hell eternally and the most painful way imaginable).

Not so humbly, my interiour is now finally decorated the way I like, which is indeed minimal, this time bedroom is like a Zen style, and living room is purely Scandinavian.

Having moved from the ghetto (primarily immigrants living in my previous area) into the posh area, I was moved to tears to walk in the neighbourhood finding a bunch of kids playing soccer in a nearby soccer field and I noticed they were all blonde blueyed Norwegians… my race. I never care for race before, but I have been living in a primarily immigrant area for so long, I am not used to see Norwegian kids or even Norwegian people sitting behind the cash register in the local supermarket. These things are new to me, and it stirred a feeling: Finally I get to see how Norway was like in the old days, back in the 80′s when I grew up, and I imagined how it was back in the old days when my ancestors lived.

Its not so much about racism (I love every race) or nationalism (I dont care about countries) but rediscovering my own cultural identity and past history was important, its part of my identity that was lost, I know I don’t need it, but it was nice to reintegrate it, see it for what it is (an illusion) but it still got to me on an emotional level, so it must mean something to me.

Its something I enjoy and I am happy about, that there is one place 14 year old boys with blond hair and blue eyes can play football in peace without being harassed by pakistani youth gangs. Indeed all races are beautiful but I like my own race the best.

There are one major monster to defeat. I have reached the ‘boss level’, to use computer-game analogy. The boss of this level is resolving the karma of all my bad relations in the past. Work begins to resolve this in 7 days.

My take on: The Greater Church of Lucifer

I have noticed there is now something called “The Greater Church of Lucifer” – their website: So what is my take on this?

  • First, I am happy that someone took the time to make a Luciferian Church. Some of the views, especially the 11 points of Luciferian power, are quite good and valid points.
  • I am happy that my friend Jeremy Crow is one of its leaders. Jeremy I highly respect.
  • I am less impressed that Michael W Ford is a contributor. Mostly because his style focuses so much on the dark gothic satanist stuff that is really confusing for any newcomer. 
  • It is very positive that they appear welcoming and open, and do not fall into the pitfall of dogmas and rules, yet still try to evoke or challenge what is common among all Luciferians. 

All in all, it seems like a good initiative, it remains to be seen how well it will be for new people who realize they have the Luciferian nature and powers that they will want to identify with Luciferianism, since it feels natural to them. 

Autumnal Equinox preparations


How quickly time passes, it seems as only yesterday that I made my last blog post. To my readers (those who are still with me) I apologise for not taking the time to update my blog. I have passed many initiations on many levels both personal, material and spiritual. 

Many things in my life have been dissolved and is either reintegrated or in the progress of being reintegrated. I was unhappy in my love life, that has solved itself, I was unhappy with my living condition, I am now moving to my dream apartment next week (I did a saturn/luna ritual that caused a disaster whith water flooding prompting a move).

On a material level, all obstacles I had in January are now overcome or resolved completely. 

On a spiritual level, I now realize the mixed pleasure and horror of manifesting everything I put my desire into. I have to be careful what I wish for.

I am not looking back, I am looking forward, and the future looks bright, I have kicked it up a notch. 

My progress

e456utedtgdfgcgvWhat has taken some of my time the past weeks, is quite transforming. It seems that all the ghosts and karma not just from my current life but all past life wanted to manifest during two moon cycles.

Another thank you to Yaldabout, thou great old testament idol of the world, thou innocent childlike old man, thou corrupted since birth, thou creator of Sin, originator of Sin and the Reason for the Fall from grace and separation of man, from Plaeroma.

Thou, creator of separation and duality, thou destroyer of the Soul of Man, who ruined the Temple of Solomon as you first ruined the greatest creation Adam Kadmon.

I salute thee Yaldabout for creating a scratch that had to be itched.

Cheers to Sophia, the wise and talented guiding force of compassion and Love.

Cheers to the Spirits, Elements, Forces and Angels and Daemons. May we meet again soon.

Now that I have traveled through the Door and entered the Path to the new realms, I can see clearer.

There is truth that true initiation should be equaled to death and rebirth. As such all folk-tales about death and rebirths are stories of initiation and the world’s ever cycling wheel of karma of creation and destruction is itself an initiation.

(In such a way, the World initiates itself).

Now it’s time to do the yearly revision.



Nephews say the darndest things

For the past weeks I took care of my nephew who is going through a rough time, being a teenager and having to face many challenges and also some family drama of sorts. So he’s been living with me, and that is why I’ve not been updating my blog recently.

Today we took an evening stroll in the light summer-like evening of late May.

In dialogue:

LuciferianBlog: Isn’t this a nice evening.

Nephew: Yes.

Nephew: I want to go to the beach and put food there with laxatives and watch all the birds take a shit on people. I have seen videos of people doing that and its hilarious.

LuciferianBlog: Are you sure that is what you want to do with your life? I mean, come on what about the people? That is not nice.

Nephew: I don’t care about the people.

LuciferianBlog: But surely you wouldn’t want anyone to pull such a prank on you. What if you were at the beach and suddenly shit flies everywhere?

Nephew: But I am not them.

LuciferianBlog: What about your principles, your morale, and the bigger picture?

Nephew: I don’t have morale. The bigger picture is… The world is going to hell.

LuciferianBlog: But if you unleash shit from the skies, you certainly are not helping? If everyone thinks like you, that explains why the world is a shitty place?

Nephew: But I do not care about the world.

LuciferianBlog: Surely you must find it in you to find some idealistic purpose. I did not raise you to be like this? Do i really have to take you to the beach and you doing all that shit? No way.

Nephew: But I did not ask you to take me to the beach.

LuciferianBlog: So now you’re saying that you will go by yourself?

Nephew: Maybe I will not go to the beach.

LuciferianBlog: Now what?

Nephew: What’s for dinner?

Computer heartbleed

If you have heard in the news about the current big computer data security hole, often referred to as the OpenSSL heartbeat or CVE-2014-0160 you probably wonder how it affects you.

Well it’s been around for 3 years. Hackers have been able to eavesdrop on your encrypted communication. During all these times everyone told you that your bank is secure, your email is secure, as long as you use HTTPS and SSL. Just as FUD (Fear, Uncertainty and Doubt) can create an illusion of making the right decision, so can NGJ (Naive Gullible Jumpingtoconclution) also be an entrapment and give you a false sense of security.

You can believe HTTPS will protect you, when it is not, and you can think it helps to download a patch and install the openssl-library 1.0.0f and above. Sure, the known bug in the above CVE will be fixed for you  – but there are other undiscovered bugs waiting to emerge tomorrow, in one month, in a year or in this case in 3 years.

Always use multiple layers of security. Don’t trust your data is safe just because some fucked up opinion that something is safe because it is theoretically safe. Always assume that out of 2 layers of protection, one are compromised and you do not know which. Use your own encryption on top of another encryption.

Banks, Corporations and Governments know this, and they are too stupid to let you know and/or to enforce good security.